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Moved!

25 Jun

My blog has moved. Please Email Me if you would like the new address.

Update on our Friends

11 Jun

Our friends lost their sweet little one today. It’s not the outcome we were all praying for but they are believers too and know their baby is with Jesus. Please pray for them as they celebrate this little life and mourn their loss. Thank you for your prayers for them.

Enlisting Prayer Warriors

1 Jun

I got an email this weekend from a beloved friend who is pregnant. However, her ultrasound revealed that one of several things could be happening and most of the options include that her baby is very near death or has already passed away. The alternate possibility is that her dates of conception are wrong and the baby is just younger than they thought it was, and is actually perfectly on track.

Would you please pray that this last option is correct and that this little one’s life is spared and that his/her parents get to meet him or her in 8 months? Please also pray for the hearts and minds of his/her mommy and daddy. We know the Lord is holding all of them close–please pray that gentle reminders of this are sent their way as they walk this journey.

Thank you, prayer warriors!

Perfect Love Casts Out Fear

26 May

After we lost our girls, I developed an impression of how I expected to feel the next time I was ever pregnant. I expected that keep my feet up, hold my breath, and live in constant fear that the worst would happen all over again. When you experience loss, it’s only natural to fear its recurrence.

So I guess that since I got the positive tests on Monday, I’ve sort of been waiting for the other shoe to drop in terms of my emotions. I’ve expected fear to take over and have tried to be on my guard against it.

But God, in His never ending compassion and love and generosity, continues to quell every fiber of my heart and mind and being with His peace. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. He’s truly teaching me what it means to live as though I believe that tomorrow has enough troubles of its own, and so I will rest today in Him. I can truly say that I’m not worried. And it’s not that I don’t think anything can or will happen. I am fully aware of the fact that God can call these babies home any moment. But I’m also fully aware that if He does, He’ll fully sustain us with everything we need to walk through that loss and that He’ll use it for His glory and ministry among His people.

I’m a worry-wart and a control freak by nature. So all glory is unto God for this Supernatural peace, for it could not possibly and does not come from within myself.

In the mean time, by and because of His grace, we’re concentrating on enjoying the growing life in me and thanking God for each precious day we have. DH kisses both me and my belly hello, goodbye, good morning, goodnight, whatever. It’s so cute.

God knows what their futures hold, and what ours hold too. We refuse to let Satan use fear and history to rob us of that confidence and joy.

Celebrating today…

Walking Pharmacy (FET Medications)

21 May

This post is going to be very boring for anyone who isn’t looking for information on an FET. However, as I am wanting this blog to also be informative for people hunting information Embryo Adoption, I want to include the information.

So unless you want the boring details on all the different medications you’re on for a transfer, skip this post.

DISCLAIMER: This post is NOT intended to be medical advice or comprehensive in its information. Never begin a medication protocol without discussing it with your doctor and your spouse and doing your own research. This is informational ONLY, for those just beginning to research the Embryo Adoption Process and who want to know what to expect.

I’m currently taking all of these every day, except numbers 1 and 12, which I alternate.
FET Meds

An explanation of each:

1: Progesterone: You will likely be on some kind(s) of progesterone. In 3 transfers, I’ve been on several kinds. This particular one is a vaginal cream called Crinone. In previous transfers, I’ve taken a vaginal suppository called Prometrium. You can also get it in injection form, which I am also on (see below for more info). In every transfer, I’ve been on multiple kinds of progesterone. Progesterone matures the uterine lining and makes it receptive to an embryo to implant. Progesterone typically starts the week before the transfer and, if pregnancy is achieved, continues throughout the first trimester.

2. Fish Oil Capsule: I take this every day as a supplement to make sure I’m getting the right kind of Omega 3s. The kind of Omega 3 Oil found in fish is only found in fish, and I hate fish, so I take the capsules. Omega 3s are good for your health anyway, but studies suggest it’s especially beneficial for mom and baby during pregnancy.

3. My Daily Vitamin: Your doctor may prescribe a prenatal vitamin, or coach you to just take your regular vitamin and a folic acid tablet on top of that. My doctor has told me there’s essentially no difference. I take this particular combination because it’s one of the few vitamins I’ve found that is in capsule form (no nasty vitamin taste!) and it doesn’t upset my stomach. Your vitamin/folic acid regimen should begin well in advance of your transfer so that levels are good when the baby is introduced.

4. Folic Acid

5. Levothyroxine: Thyroid medication. Though you may not have thyroid issues, your doctor may want to check your levels before your transfer, and after, especially if you have metabolic or hormone issues (which may women facing an FET do). Messing with all your hormones can wreak havoc on your thyroid. My problem is genetic, but was not discovered until a transfer cycle.

6. Cephlex: Antibiotic. Your doctor will put you on an antibiotic for the few days before and just after the transfer, to make sure you don’t develop an infection from the procedure. I’ve typically been on either Zithromax or Doxycycline, but in this case, I already had a sinus infection, so my doctor just had me use this one, stronger antibiotic for both. Your doctor may or may not put your husband on an antibiotic too (my first doctor did, second doctor did not). The way I understand it, it is to prevent you from infecting him if you did develop anything.

7. Prednisone: I actually take 2 of these per day, but that’s my last one so it’s only shown once. Prednisone is a steroid. Both of my doctors have prescribed a steroid for just before the transfer until a few days after it. It is believed that it aids in implantation, and suppresses your body’s tendency to attack the embryos as “foreign.”

8. Acidophilus: I take an acidophilus supplement to ease the impacts of the medications (most specifically, the metformin and the antibiotic) on my stomach and digestive track.

9. Metformin: I have PCOS, and I take Metformin to treat its ovulatory and insulin effects. If you are on it already, most doctors keep you on it throughout the first trimester of pregnancy.

10. Estrace: is a form of Estrogen. It is begun a couple of weeks before your transfer and continues through the first trimester. Estrogen is essential for your uterine lining to develop appropriately for a baby and pregnancy. In a naturally occurring pregnancy, your body would produce its own estrogen for this matter, but since your body didn’t manufacturer this baby, it doesn’t know to start its engines and produce it accordingly, so you have to do this step artificially until the body catches on.

11. Baby aspirin: increases blood flow to your uterus and the uterine lining, which aids in implantation. If you start spotting, your doctor may determine that your blood flow is adequate and take you off it.

12. Progesterone: I take progesterone in Ethyl Oleate. You may take it in that form, or in an oil compound. I previously took it in sesame oil, which is common. I was taken off it due to an allergic reaction. The oil is drawn up with the big needle, and then you switch the needle to the one with the blue end, which is much finer in diameter. This is the needle used to inject the medication. Your doctor will instruct you to administer it in either your hip or your thigh. It typically begins a week-ish before the transfer, and continues throughout the first trimester.

I was terrified of the shots at first, but if you or your hubby are taught well how to administer them, they’re a piece of cake. Put the bottle in your bra for half an hour or so to warm it. This thins the oil and makes it easier to administer. Don’t artificially heat the oil because you don’t want to burn yourself from the inside. If you don’t want to go the bra method, use some other form of natural heat (such as friction between your hands).

Rub the top of the bottle with an alcohol swab. Fill the syringe with air, then plunge it in to the bottle and depress the air out. Then draw up the medication, slightly over the amount you’re going to take. Trade heads on the needle. Flick out any air bubbles out of the needle and plunge some of the medication out if needed. Swab the area of the skin with an alcohol pad. Pull up the area, and pinch it, HARD. Relax the muscle by lying or sitting, or standing on the opposing leg.

Put the needle in straight, quickly, and all the way. Plunge the medication as quickly as it will let you, then withdraw the needle quickly. Massage the area hard, especially if you’re using an oil compound. You don’t want the oil to sit under your skin because you’ll get knots and bruises. I also recommend putting a heating pad on the area after you’re done to aid in the same purpose of dissipating the oil. Make sure you alternate sides so that you don’t develop any one area that’s too tender. Often times, it’s the knots and bruises that hurt, not the injections themselves, so make sure you take the time to work them out.

13. Not pictured: Birth Control. If you suffer from irregular periods, your doctor may choose to put you on birth control for one cycle, in order to be able to better schedule your protocol and anticipate when the best time for a transfer would be. I did the BC route for transfers 1 and 2. With this one, I was regular enough on my own that I was able to skip the birth control, which I appreciated greatly.

14. Not pictured: Valium. The uterus’ natural reaction to something invading it is to want to cramp up and expel it. Your doctor will more than likely, put you on valium (or something similar) to relax your uterine muscles for the day of the transfer, and prevent it from cramping up and wanting to kick out the embryos and the transfer tools. Make sure you make all decisions about thawing and transfer before you take the valium, because it can be very altering. You typically take this one hour before your transfer, on the day of transfer only.

That’s it!

I’ve been on 3 FET protocols with two different doctors and they’ve roughly been some variation of this. Your doctor may have his own preferences but some combination of these kind of drugs (a vitamin, estrogen, progesterone, a steroid and an antibiotic) is pretty standard. Feel free to ask any questions and I will answer to the best of my ability!

Thoughts the Night Before Transfer 3

17 May

Well, here we are. In a little over 12 hours, I’ll have babies on board again…I’ll be PUPO again (pregnant until proven otherwise).

I’m doing remarkably well. This whole transfer has just been…different. In part, we didn’t have a ton of time to stress about it.  It was just “bam, your transfer is in 3 weeks!” That was really good. Secondly, I’ve been on fewer and easier hormones–that’s been good for me, and everyone around me 😉 But most importantly, I’ve just tried to have a different attitude this time. The last couple of times, I’ve tried to be in complete control-with my environment, with what we do, with what happens around us.  And you know what? No matter how much I stress or control, I can’t determine what’s going to happen. No amount of worrying is going to save their lives or guarantee me the outcome I want. So really all it does is waste time, and disobey God’s instruction to surrender, and rob me and Him of that sweetness that comes with resting in Him.

My prayer this time has consistently been for an increase of my faith. Every time my mind tries to go to the what ifs, I try to stop those thoughts dead in their tracks and pray for God’s will instead.  God has generously and miraculously removed all fears, and uneasiness and I am going into this with a peace that I can only describe as supernatural. So this transfer feels different, because I think I am different this time around, completely and solely by God’s power, and mercy.. That doesn’t mean I don’t still desperately hope I get to meet my babies in 9 months, or that I won’t be brokenhearted if we lose these babies too…I guess I just feel less anxious about the outcome…more and better prepared to accept whatever His answer is. We’ll see if I hold true to these words in a few weeks. Please continue to join me in prayer for peace!

We had a wonderful weekend. We filled it with spending time with each other and with people we love and it was such a wonderful distraction. Even if I wanted to worry about tomorrow, I haven’t had time to. We started off yesterday morning just hanging out together. We had breakfast together, puttered around our house and then went to the movies. By the way, Le.tters to Ju.liet is very, very cute. It’s 100% predictable, but it’s also 100% clean and sweet, which is very rare.

But, I digress. We then went out to spend a couple hours with roomie and her hubby, celebrating their move to AZ and their new home with a wonderful housewarming party. Have I mentioned how much I LOVE having her here? Then we spent the afternoon with Mike, Krista, and the kids at an Aquarium that just opened up and at dinner. It’s so fun to see and enjoy life through the eyes of sweet children.

This morning we went to church, where a group of intercessors gathered with us to pray over us and the babies. Then we spent the afternoon just the two of us, and then our WWF Family (us, Winns and another church family, the Freelands) came over and we enjoyed dinner, fun, and fellowship. Now, I’m blogging, I’m going to pack, spend some time in prayer, and go to bed! Tomorrow, we’ll spend the night with my parents before coming home on Tuesday.

God has been so generous in His provision of sweet fellowship, quality time with people I love, fun, teaching, and great distractions!

Facing a transfer is always a little odd, because no matter the pregnancy outcome, we’re releasing our babies. Anywhere between tomorrow and a few weeks from now, they’ll be either with their Savior or burrowing in me. In some ways, the limbo is easier to deal with, because the status quo is familiar. Both of the other possible outcomes are a little scary.  So it’s just odd signing off on the documents to make this life-changing decision on their behalf.  Thankfully, they are in the hand of our loving God–all I need to do is sign the paperwork!

Our praises are that the medications have been much easier this time around, that God has helped us spend this waiting time well, that He’s grown us in faith and understanding, that He’s surrounded us with such wonderful family and friends, and that He’s given us His precious peace that surpasses understanding.

The babies will be thawed tomorrow morning, probably before we even wake up. If you’d like to join us in prayer, these are our requests. Please pray for their safety during the thaw process. We are thawing one vial of two embryos. Please pray for the embryologist as he/she handles their precious little lives. Pray that our wishes are respected and that each of their little lives are honored as just that, and not as “material” and “disposable.” Please pray for my doctor as he does the transfer. Please pray for my comfort during the procedure. And most of all, please just pray for our babies. Their lives are about to change very dramatically, one way or the other.

I’ll sign off with 2 songs that I’ve been meditating on and worshiping to this week. Not coincidentally, they’re both by Avalon, my favorite group. There’s a power and meaning in their songs that just swells my heart and soul, and really conducts me toward the heart of God. These songs remind me of God’s trustworthiness, unchanging character, and unwavering love and faithfulness. I pray they encourage you, too!

Still My God

You Were There

After the last transfer, I was pretty heavily medicated, so I don’t know how quickly I’ll get back for an update, but I will when I can.

Goodnight, friends. I love you!

Goodnight babies, I love you.

Angie Smith’s book is free, now (digital)

14 May

Recently, I blogged about Angie Smith’s book. I’ve given it a 5 star review. Right now, it’s free from Barnes and Noble in digital form for the Nook and other compatible e-readers. Go get your copy now. I’m not sure how long it will be free.

Update: I guess you can download software that would let you read the book on your computer, too.

Today’s Ultrasound, and Post Mother’s Day Recap

11 May

Today’s ultrasound went fine. This is a standard-procedure ultrasound wherein they were to determine if my uterine lining was of the correct thickness to proceed with the transfer next week, or if they needed to do something to thin or thicken it, or cancel the cycle all together. The lining has to be just right to accept the embryo-too thin and it can’t support this new life, and too thick and the baby just can’t burrow to where it needs to go. My doctor did say that things looked a little thicker than he would like, but the progesterone I’m starting this week should get it right to where it needs to go. (Shots start on Wednesday–dislike!) So, we are still on track for a Monday transfer.

I’m feeling better about this transfer. My friend Heather, a fellow Snowflake Mommy, encouraged me that just as each embryo is unique, each transfer is unique, and God’s plan for each of these babies is unique, so I need to go in without the fear of the past crowding my expectations. I think I remember encouraging her with similar thoughts after her first transfer failed, but somehow, it’s always easier to say it to someone else, and much harder to remember when it’s about you. So, thank you, sweet friend, for the reminder. I’ve been praying for God to grow me in faith and expectation and trust for this transfer. It’s so much different than last time(s). I do pray for it to “work” but that’s not the primary focus of my prayer life for this transfer, and I’m grateful to God for growing my heart and understanding.

I have pretty incredible friends. For the first time in I can’t remember how long, Mother’s Day wasn’t unbearable.

But before I explain why, here is the back story. One of the hardest things about being the mommy to children no one can know is their invisibility, and mine that comes with it. I often find myself frustrated with the hypocrisy that pro-life people will picket the abortion clinic and/or oppose embryonic stem cell research and/or tout the line “life begins at conception” but when these little lives are actually created, or worse, lost, they’re not treated like children and we’re not treated like their mothers.

I was their mommy the moment we adopted them, and I’m still their mother, even though several of them have already met Jesus.  And yet good, Christian, pro-life people will still refer to me (and the general class of women like me) as a “future mother” or “not yet a mother” or someone who “hopes to be a mother.” It’s positively maddening! If you’re going to say these are human lives, then refer to them as such! These are real human lives in frozen storage who are our living children and who need our protection and care, these are real human lives going into my body, and the ones we lost were real human lives who died!

I know there is little-to-no malice in a lot of these kind of comments. But if we’re going to be consistently pro-life, we have to rid ourselves of that kind of thinking. Each and every life is precious, regardless of whether or not we get to see and hold that life.

This sort of inconsistency is honestly, one of the reasons I resigned from the pro-life non-profit I worked for. They can’t get on board with embryo adoption. And I can’t wrap my head around that.

So anyway, that’s one of the big reasons I struggle with Mother’s Day. Before, it was just a reminder that I didn’t have what I desperately wanted. Then, it became this awful message that I’m just not mother-enough for me to warrant mention or inclusion in such a holiday. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not about the gifts or cards. It’s really, truly not. It’s about the acknowledgment that my babies mattered;: by affirming that I am a mother, you affirm to me that their lives exist and matter. By remembering me, you remember them. And when all you have of your babies is love and hope and dreams and other invisibles, someone else acknowledging their existence means more than I can ever possibly explain.

But, the world just doesn’t think that way.  People will often say that they’re the parents or grandparents (or whatever) of ___ children, and only count the born-living ones. “Happy Mother’s Day” is often only said only to those whose children they have held in their arms. Innumerable babies die before birth with no name, ceremony, or remembrance of their life.  Countless women whose only children are in heaven are afraid other people will think they’re weird if they stand when the pastor asks all moms to stand up. I think it’s just something unintentionally ingrained in us, that we often only acknowledge what we can see. I think it’s not coincidence that we (well, I!) have the same struggles with faith!

Back to why Mother’s Day was wonderful. From Friday all the way through yesterday, I received flowers, cards, emails, facebook posts and text messages from too many friends to possibly mention. And I just weep with gratitude. While the tangibles of the cards and flowers are nice and I cherish them, to each one of you who acknowledged my motherhood this weekend, thank you for that, and more importantly, thank you for remembering my children.  Thank you for claiming their lives and dignities and existence and personhood with me.  Thank you for investing in me and in them, with your prayers and your petitions and your encouragement. It means more than I could ever possibly tell you. I so incredibly grateful for you and I love you all, more than words can say.

Shifting (Rather, Expanding) Focus + New EA Resources

11 May

This blog has had a few identity-crises in its young life. It tends to wander as much as my thoughts do, covering everything from the mundane goings on of our life, to our progress in our adoption, and everything in between. It serves as a way to keep people we know updated on our life.

But, we also want to serve as a “picture” of embryo adoption. I get emails relatively regularly from people who find my blog in their own search for more information on it. Honestly, as much as I love telling our story to our friends and family, those are the emails I love the most, because I have such a heart for spreading the word about Embryo Adoption.

I want this to be a real picture of it. The good, the bad, the ugly, and the plain-old hard. But I also want it to be informative in terms of the process itself, relevant developments in research and law, the emergence of new resources, etc.

So, to that end, I will now be including more clinical type information on my blog. I will still be including our personal story, because I think that’s as relevant to the picture as “the facts” but be forewarned that those of you who bore easily may be skipping an occasional post or two henceforth 🙂

So, I invite you to keep reading, as much or as little as you would like, and let me know if you ever have any questions about Embryo Adoption!

Resources for the day:
•Governor Brewer (R-AZ), just signed SB1307 on Friday, which is a new bill that protects the dignity of the human embryo.  It bans embryonic stem-cell research, cloning, and combining human embryos with non-human cells or implanting them in non-human bodies. It also prevents the sale of human embryos.  This is wonderful news in the effort to restore and protect the dignity of these precious little lives.  It unfortunately does not prohibit the destruction of embryos; it simply says you cannot conduct research on them. While this bill does not pertain directly to Embryo Adoption, join me in praying that the people who once planned to donate their embryos to research would choose to give life to them, rather than their remaining alternatives of destroying them or leaving them frozen indefinitely.

•Canada now has its first Open Embryo Adoption/Donation program. Click here for more information.

•The Embryo Donation and Adoption Awareness Center has a list of all Embryo Adoption programs in the United States. There are countless additional donation programs, as many clinics offer private, anonymous options.

I think that’s all for now, folks!

Clinic Directives

26 Apr

I just read about a woman who recently underwent a Frozen Embryo Transfer with donated embryos. At the time of transfer, she chose to thaw 5 embryos. Once they were thawed, she chose the best two, and discarded the other 3. She is now pregnant. To stay I’m stunned by and struggling with this is the understatement of the century. But this isn’t about my feelings on this. And it’s not about judgment on her, because I don’t know her. I’m only grieved by her choices. It’s about dispelling inaccuracies, myths, and lies. Nadya Suleman was the perfect example of a woman who felt backed into a corner because she was provided inaccurate and incomplete information. And I think that happens all too often, especially in the world of ARTs.

First, discarded is just a euphemism for killed. An embryo is a completely individual, completely unique, completely human, tiny little life. It contains all of the genetic material it will ever have, which means that from its creation, it was as much a human being as you or I. The only difference is size and degree of development. But, just like a newborn is different from a toddler who is different from a teenager, who is different than a twenty-something, who is different from a geriatric, but they are all still equally human, so is this little embryo. Her body still needs to grow, but every single cell of her being is human. Therefore, you cannot discard as though you can something inanimate. You can only kill.

She said that she discarded the other 3 because her clinic refuses to refreeze. I have a couple responses.

First: You are the patient. And YOU are the parent. YOU have the right to determine what happens to your babies and to you. Reproductive Technology is the only medical field I’ve ever encountered where the doctors expect patients to surrender a carte blanche. With our first clinic, the thaw/transfer contracts basically boiled down to “when in doubt, we (the clinic) make all the decisions and we’ll do what we think is best.”

But think about it. Would a dentist ever just tell you, “Open your mouth, and trust me. I’ll let you know when I’m done?” Who knows if you’d end up with fillings or braces or no teeth at all? Would a Physical Therapist ever map out a plan of action without soliciting your input? How about a cardiologist? For Pete’s sake, not even a hairdresser would do that! In every case, the caregiver would assess the situation, take exams if necessary, and then outline your options to you and the two of you would choose one together.

Do you want a gold filling or a silver one? Do you want a hip replacement or physical therapy? Do you want heart surgery or drug therapy? Do you want bangs or a bowl-cut? Why the reproductive field is any different, I don’t know. (I realize that things are different when you’re in a critical care situation with a comatose patient, but this is not that scenario). It doesn’t have to be that way. No amount of authoritative language actually means they have any legal right over you to make those decisions (that’s not to imply that they’re behaving illegally, it’s just to say that just because they say it’s their right, doesn’t mean it actually is). Sure, it’s their right to do business as they please, but it’s your right to take your business elsewhere if you’re not satisfied.

DON’T sign paperwork you’re not comfortable with. We spent DAYS editing our first transfer paperwork, to omit every single reference to and possible loophole for any kind of destruction of life, as well as any ambiguity about decision making. And then we met with the Embryologist to lay out our priorities just in case we’d missed anything in writing. And that was our right and our clinic respected it.

When we switched doctors, we again reviewed all contracts before our babies were ever touched, and were very clear with our directives from the get-go. At the end of the day, YOU make the choices for yourself and your children. Don’t let a clinic bully you into making decisions you’re not comfortable with. Know, in advance, their policies and procedures for every possible scenario: When are the embryos being thawed? Who decides how many to thaw? What happens if every embryo you thaw survives? What happens if only some that are thawed survive? What happens to those who look “stalled” or “arrested” or “weak” or “slow?” WHO makes those decisions-the doctor or the patient? Do they decide according to “viability” or according to “dead or not dead.” (“Viable” in this case is a gray area that means the embryo is technically alive, but the Embryologist will decide what chances it has for survival).

Read your contracts very very carefully. Get to know the heart of your doctor. Is their goal to “get you pregnant” or to honor your wishes, including if it means treating each life as a precious individual? We’ve been blessed that in both our cases, while our doctors disagree with us on the value and the life of the embryo, they operated according to our beliefs when dealing with our babies. Under any circumstances, do not go in to a thaw/transfer situation without knowing who has the ultimate decision making power in every scenario. Get to know what the nuances in the contract language mean. Be as specific as possible in your directives. On a side but related note, also make sure your clinic has instructions on what to do with your embryos in case you die. In most cases, the embryos would be destroyed unless you tell them differently in advance.

But, if after all that, your clinic doesn’t want to let you alter your contract or make your own decisions, or if you just don’t think they’ll respect the treatment of those lives that you think they demand, get a new clinic! At the end of the day, they are a service-provider. You don’t owe them your business or your loyalty, and in most regions of the country, there are several other choices who would love your business. You DO owe your children your protection.

If for some reason you’re in a situation where there’s only one pony show in town, or only one insurance-approved provider, or some other reason where you’re forced to use this clinic/doctor and no one else, then make your decisions accordingly. If you know they won’t refreeze, then don’t thaw more embryos than you’re willing to transfer.  Thawing only takes about half an hour. You can start out conservatively and if they die in the thaw, you can still thaw more before your transfer. I do know that doesn’t allow for culturing over days with day 1-3 embies, but I’m of the belief the quicker they’re in the natural womb, the better. God holds their lives-if they’re going to live, they’ll live and He doesn’t need a couple extra days in a dish to accomplish that.

However, if you do believe in culturing, then only thaw the amount of embryos you’d be willing to carry in pregnancy if they all survived and implanted, and no more. If that means you end up canceling a cycle because all embryos died in the thaw and you don’t have time to thaw more, well, so be it. If Embryo Adoption is how God intends to grow your family, He’ll equip you with the means you need to go through as many transfers as it takes. Don’t make life-or-death decisions according to economy and odds.

Embryo adoption cannot be about just getting you pregnant. There are now other people involved, so this can’t be just about you. As soon as you take responsibility for those babies, your decisions have to be about them. These tiny lives have been entrusted to your care for nurture, shepherding, and protection. Considering Embryo Adoption only as a fertility treatment opens the door for all sorts of decisions that I don’t think anyone would make if they considered these precious as they are: tiny little children. These babies need our protection and our advocacy. Their tiny little lives have already had an unconventional and dangerous start. Please be careful as you make your decisions about your future, and theirs. Seek the Lord to direct you with wisdom and discernment as you make decisions. Stand up for your rights, and for theirs. Educate yourself and know the information that could change or harm all your lives. Communicate with your doctors. Know what you don’t know. And when in doubt, please err on the side of caution.